I didn’t know Aaron Swartz.
I now know I never will know him. I knew about him. I read stuff about/from him once in a while, mostly without reflecting about who it was writing it. Because, to be completely honest -- most of the time, I don’t suppose the geek community thinks that much about the personal well-being of a single person within it. It’s not that we don’t care, we’re just to distanced from each other.
People are more of their Twitter-names than anything else out there. Aaron Swartz fought for freedom of information, something that is so much more than about the ”right to freely steal copyrighted stuff”, it’s more about the Democracy 2.0 -- because frankly, speaking in 2013, the democracy of 1776 is outdated. We can do better
In the end, for Aaron Swartz, he gave up his fight against the prosecution from the U.S. government. I can’t say anything about the specific case, but hey, shouldn’t we care more about others? Because, in the end, Aaron should have gotten the support necessary to find another way out. Somehow, this is what the EFF does in some extent, but apparently (and this is very important) even though the decision Aaron took is final, and the same thing for Florian Hufsky some years ago, and for Alan Turing some fifty years ago -- there’s a serious issue.
It’s so easy when acting with pseudoneums and non-face to face communication to be very, very rude. It’s also easy to get expectations that someone is perfect, should be perfect or generally haven’t got a personal life. A young wise man had his expectations broken time after time. I think I might be something like that myself as well. There are people I look at as perfect in many ways, and that I envy. But I know nothing about their state of mind. Their happiness. And frankly, no one is perfect.
I should know that.
You know, no single person can know everything, not even everything about a subject, no matter how thin the subject is. Isn’t that the wonderful thing about the world? There’s always room for more curiosity. And this is very serious, speaking from my heart, perhaps for the first time publicly online: Being curious is wonderful when you can live your curiosity. When you’re forced to follow a strict path, to put constraints on your imagination because apparently, curiosity, being excited about things and being engaged to fun and rather healthy hobbies isn’t always a good thing.
I should know that.
In the end, Aaron Swartz took his life. That’s horrible. In every way, there’s no arguments any other way. How could we in the IT community fix that? Being an introvert, I rather prefer not to speak from heart rather than from brain. I have a couple of friends I have talked from heart with, and one especially that I tend to call whenever anything is troubling me (considering how bored I am by school, that happens quite often). But does everyone else have someone like that? Someone you know listens to you, your heart and anything you’d say without judging you.
You know who you are, thank you.
In the end, I’m very scared for when I get older that I will feel like I’m happy, good job, an apartment, kittens and perhaps being able to visit friends and family all over, when I reach that stage of life -- I might forget to phone my friend. I would never want that to happen. Not for me, not for anyone. I believe everyone needs someone who lends you a shoulder when you need to cry. This person is not your wife/husband/gf/bf/similar, but someone that’s available even after a possible divorce. Someone you can depend on.
And lastly: Go hug someone dear to you. We all need that. Sometimes it’s just to hard to make people listen to you. Understand you. Sometimes you need a time out, and you can’t be alone. Let’s get togheter and do stuff, perhaps people normally active in web can build a treehouse in the midst of a forest and then sleep in it or under the pale night sky?
That way, perhaps in the future, we can make sure everyone feels loved and doesn’t choose suicide.
It’s just a small silly thing, but hey, isn’t life silly? And it’s hanging on a very, very thin thread.
Maybe the world could start accepting differences as good things as well? Not everyone is born equal.
Please don’t die young. Please.